Easter!

Obviously, it's Easter weekend. I love Easter. It's the only good family holiday besides Christmas. It's like... the Spring equivalent of Christmas.

Now, I am the oldest of three kids, six if you count in my three step siblings, so I absolutely adore seeing their faces when they wake up on these kinds of mornings. I'm excited now because tomorrow morning, everyone is going to get along, no one is going to fight, and everyone is going to be happy. The looks on the three girl's faces when they find their chocolate and such.

But tonight feels different. My brother isn't around and I guess I shouldn't be surprised by that. He says that family always comes first, but I'm really starting to doubt that with him.

I don't know.

I think I'll have to sit down with him. I just miss my little brother, the one who used to fight with me, the one who would always be home when I came home from school. Not the one who goes out every night. Not the one who is sick. Not the one who drinks himself silly at only 16 years old. It's depressing, but even more so because he has no idea I miss him.

I am still excited for tomorrow. I have tons of little cousins (because I am the oldest there too) and I love to see them on these kinds of days. Especially when I never really get to see them anymore. And I still have my little sisters who I know will never get into that kind of stuff, the ones who I never want to grow up.

Anyway, I'll post tomorrow, maybe with a funny video and some Easter wishes. :)

Just keep swimming,
I know I'm trying.
Jill